I can't just seem too ...

I tried my best to contained myself as much as I can but the more I try to control it the more it want to screams and get out of me.

What more can I say Although life may not seem to be as perfect as we want it. I can call mine a perfect and sure hit. Although they are times that you will question the what if's and endless crying. Everybody cries, laugh and questions things about their life, right?

As I was cleaning some of my old stuffs (compilations of old songs, my kilig moments, music sheets, pictures, memorabilia of my ex's and a whole lot more.) I played a cd "entitled TEARS I SHED" I was shocked and curious of what is inside and there is was songs of my past right before my eyes and ears playing the songs that means so much too me.

songs of love...

songs of regret...

songs of letting go...

songs of yearning...

songs of sadness...

songs that reminded me of YOU ...

songs of friendship...

songs of my past...


Songs of mixed emotions


How stupid I fell gaga...

How to fall in love all over again and not thinking that getting hurt over and over...

How cruel love is...

How nervous I was with my first kiss and first date(Yup, I still remember that day and You.)...

How exciting seeing your crush or boyfriend... or even be picked up at school or work...

How every phone call is so important and the Kilig moment...

I still remember a lot of beautiful, wonderful and the not so good memories of the good old days.

I still remember the my first boyfriend.. The date I said "Yes" and the break-up.. Who confided with me and how I healed from my broken heart..

I still remember my frist date... What I wore and who I was with....I can still remember the cologne your were wearing and what you wore ...

I still remember on our first anniversary what we ate... How we celebrated it and the gifts you showered me...

I still remember a lot of the good old days I shared with the few men who became a part of my life and I am so thankful for all the laughter, the tears, the heartaches, the honesty that binds our relationship then. Because of that it made more a stronger, better and more open minded person. I am also thankful that after the break up we remain friends and still respect each other. Thank you so much for all the wonderful memories we had shared.


Songs that forever I will treasure and when played thoughts and flashback of memories... Wonderful memories that I continue to build, hold and cherished.